He Said, She Sad

ENTERTAINMENT WEEKLY: Erika, I feel for you. I wanted to hide under my blanket while watching the show last night, so I can only imagine how you felt sitting there.
ERIKA LANDIN: It was pretty difficult for me and my family.

How did you keep from bursting out crying?
I don't know. I guess I had a feeling there was going to be bad stuff said. I was braced for it in a way. I knew when Alison was going to say something that it wasn't going to be nice. That shows what these people's true characters are. My mom has always told me to take the high road. I just wanted to get out of the house and see my family. What can I say? If that's how you want to conduct yourself, that's you.

Was your family able to console you?
My family is devastated. It was hard. My brother is super protective, and he is like, ''Don't even get me started.'' I have to tell him it will be okay. He's called me already four times today. I have a really close family. When someone hurts me, it hurts them.

Have you had a good cry yet over all this?
I did, in the airport about 10 minutes ago. I haven't slept. I haven't eaten. I'm pretty crazed right now.

Janelle is traveling with you and Boogie. Have you and Janelle patched things up, because she seemed pretty angry at you?
It's totally fine. I felt so ganged up on, and I was like, Whoa. Wait a second. I think she was really upset because she thought I threw that last HOH where I totally lost it fair and square. I don't know how they edited it. Of course I was going to try to play both sides, but in actuality, in my head I was like, ''I got to win this HOH competition so I can kick him out.''

Do you think you'll be friends with any all-stars now that the show is over?
Definitely Marcellas, and not just because he voted for me. We were really, really close, and we will remain friends.

What about Danielle?
Ugh, no. I was happy when she left. I was like, ''She is crazy.'' She was up in my HOH room one day for three hours. My head was spinning.

Do you think you were vilified by the jury because you're a woman?
It's a totally sexist game. Guys can be villains and bastards, and we give them money. If a woman uses men, it's like, Oh, she's a whore. That's our society. What can I say? I was single. I wasn't cheating anyone. I was going to do whatever it takes to get further in the game.

You must have felt a little bit vindicated on The View this morning after Rosie went into Boogie like that.
It was a lot of basically yelling at Boogie for his behavior. Like, ''Your mother should be ashamed.'' The truth hurts. I think he's really upset. You have to think about when you call women things, how would your mother feel or your grandmother feel? If I was a mother and I saw my kid act like that, I'd be embarrassed. I think he got really swept away loving being the bad guy. His television persona kind of took over, and the real Boogie got swept away in the whole show. I think he's feeling it now. He'll come down from this whole thing and think, ''This probably wasn't worth it.'' At The View today, Ashton [Kutcher] went up and said, ''I'm kind of embarrassed to say I'm your friend.'' Then he said, ''I appreciate you were looking out for our businesses, but are people going to come now?'' He was like, ''My wife thinks you're an a--hole.'' I was like, ''Ooh! Demi Moore hates Boogie! I like it.'' Then [Ashton] came up to me and gave me a hug. And Ashton Kutcher is really gorgeous, so I liked getting a hug from him.

Funny, that's not how Boogie said it went down. So are you still angry at Boogie, or are you over the whole thing?
I'm definitely not the type of person to hold a grudge. The only person that would be hurting is me. What can I do? He apologized. Whether he means it or not I don't know. But it is what it is at this point. What else can I do?

A few things come to mind.
And Mike said it was only really at the end, when we kicked out Will, that he said those things. Should I not even watch?

I don't know, but it wasn't just after Will went home.
Who knows now what's going on in his head? He could totally not like me. He could say I was just saying all that s--- for the show. He could say it's all television. He's got serious issues. He's just an a--hole. I just feel really bad for my family. They feel so horrible for me. My brother turned to Alison's mother, who was sitting two people down from him at the finale, and said, ''I just have to tell you that your daughter is a c---.'' Security had to report it to the producers, like maybe he won't be able to go to the wrap party. I was like, ''Are you kidding?'' My family's already put a hit out on Boogie.

Will you be going to the wrap party?
I'm kind of thinking not. I don't have reason to celebrate.

Onto happier things, what are you going to do with your money?
I'm really just going to pay bills. I took out a second mortgage, so I'm going to pay some of that back and just play catch-up. I just want to get back to real life to make this be part of my past as quickly as possible.

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